Today's mood :>
上个星期四，是我在Uno最后一天上班。放工后大伙一起吃韩国BBQ。吃后大家都纷纷回家去。当我在去停车场的路上，无意间看见我的表姐和她的男友在咖啡厅里。我已经快2年没见过她了。两年前，我听说她与她妈不合，所以搬出去住了。我实在非常高兴遇见她，没想太多就过去哈啦了。她和她的男友都比以前胖多了，那该证明了生活居住饮食良好。大家都问同一个超常用的开场白-"几时结婚啊？"哈哈。。
聊呀聊的，竟然提起4年前发生的事件。她很惊讶我隐瞒了她，如果我有找她谈至少能让她能安慰我。。我怎能说得出口呢。。
至今我还再想，如果当初的决定是相反的话，结局也会不一样吗？是不是后悔了呢？其实也没有后悔当初的决定，毕竟那不是我一个人能决定得了。。只不过，那阴影和因果总让我心疼，想找他哭诉一切。。
我们总是没把事情说清楚。他从来不提，我却不敢过问。他心底其实到底有没有丁点不舍？我是不是只有一个人为那事件哭泣？要怎么做才能完全放下所有？
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Am I a bad daughter?
Today's mood :>
I already moved out from my family's house for almost 3 years. I go back like once or twice a month. No, it's not far from the place im staying now, around 20 mins drive. Now I dun feel like moving back honestly. I'm wondering am i really the worst daughter in the world..
my mom always call me. It sounds good, but the fact is she just ask money from me. YES, I know, as a son or daughter we should pay back to parents as they gave birth and feed us for us to grow up and be orang berguna. But is that all you can talk to your daughter who has been staying in other house for almost 3 years? Can't u just ask bout my work or life? I'm not earning much from my work. Though my kind bro borrow me his car for me to drive to work in Mont Kiara, I had to pay all my expenses other than car loan. One of my friend even told me that she thinks I'm stingy. I didn't put any effort to belanja or even ajak friends to go yum cha. The question is, can I afford to do that? Do you notice I always wear same pair of sport shoes everyday? And I only have 1 pair of jeans? And I only have 1 hand bag?
Honestly I get quite pissed and even sometimes very sad that I couldnt earn much. I can't have the life I want to live in. Im off for now. Just to rant. Still office hour. Ciaoz.
I already moved out from my family's house for almost 3 years. I go back like once or twice a month. No, it's not far from the place im staying now, around 20 mins drive. Now I dun feel like moving back honestly. I'm wondering am i really the worst daughter in the world..
my mom always call me. It sounds good, but the fact is she just ask money from me. YES, I know, as a son or daughter we should pay back to parents as they gave birth and feed us for us to grow up and be orang berguna. But is that all you can talk to your daughter who has been staying in other house for almost 3 years? Can't u just ask bout my work or life? I'm not earning much from my work. Though my kind bro borrow me his car for me to drive to work in Mont Kiara, I had to pay all my expenses other than car loan. One of my friend even told me that she thinks I'm stingy. I didn't put any effort to belanja or even ajak friends to go yum cha. The question is, can I afford to do that? Do you notice I always wear same pair of sport shoes everyday? And I only have 1 pair of jeans? And I only have 1 hand bag?
Honestly I get quite pissed and even sometimes very sad that I couldnt earn much. I can't have the life I want to live in. Im off for now. Just to rant. Still office hour. Ciaoz.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
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