Today's mood :>
is he changed, or am I extremely LOA?
nobody can tell me, he never comfort me..or is everything happen too fast? heat up too fast, cool down also fast..
I have no idea, Feng. whether I want to b with a person that love me or a person that can b by my side.
why can't I have both? haha. maybe that's why, I be with a person that accompany me so that person doesn't love me.

but, what is love?

what made me so emo is bcuz I found out that he smsed his exgf who called him yesterday , said that "not good timing. call u tmrw" I confronted him, he said he didn't call her. how can I proof that he did or did not? can I trust him? I know, I already don't trust him first of all.

FireWire said, if u always suffer in a relationship, u better end it before it's too late. But which relationship never has bad times? if I never work hard, I won't learn anything. well he might be the only one who knows that I always try to save my relationship which he thinks it's wasting effort.

"THIS RELATIONSHIP IS NOT ONLY ME!" I always shouted this to him. I know he can never understand. I really am tired of this. I can't give up until I found proof. prove that this relationship has to end, prove that he doesn't love me anymore, prove that I don't love him anymore, prove that this is a dead-end.