Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I love myself

Today's mood :>
Last sunday I went to see Peterpan concert. Hujan also got perform there! Ya, Hujan just came back from UK. Don't say that they're lousy just because they're Malay band. If you got a band, ask yourself if you can do better than them! Fine.. too bad Peterpan didn't perform my favourite song ah~ "Bintang di surga".. haha..

Camwhore sikit..

Sunday, April 27, 2008

1 Litre of Tears

Today's mood :>
I had watched this drama few years ago, this story is not made, it's based on a real story. If you haven't seen it, the plot is about a 15-yr-old Japanese girl got a disease called Spinocerebellar Atrophy but lived happily until she passed away peacefully at the age of 25. This disease still doesn't have any cure and the cause is still unknown. If you think that this drama is just to make people cry, then I think that you are heartless.

After I watched it again, I'm glad that I still can type normally and blog this. At the same time, I feel very sad, nobody care bout my existence. I spent my time on the one who's so important to me but what I get is not what I want. Cetana told me that I always fall in love with people who doesn't appreciate me. I gave him a lot of chances. I can't stand his sudden hot then cold. I tried to make him happy but what I get is I being said that I'm disturbing. In my point of view, I gave him my time, doesn't he should appreciate it? Or I'm not worth the appreciation? Tell me, do human should be more selfish, it's worth it even they make people suffer for their happiness?

What i wish is you appreciate people that's always supporting you when you're still alive. I hope when I'm not around, somebody would remember me. Remember what I've done is not for my own good.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Back on the moonlight Part. 2

Today's mood :>
She runs toward the night sky,
I watch her shadow behind the moonlight turns into memories;
She didn't say good-bye,
A lot of scenes in my heart still not yet make into a movie;

I stare into the night sky,
I heard moonlight tells me that her disappearance won't be a problem;
I didn't say good-bye,
Maybe there's chance to meet her again lying to myself;

雪白的毛长满全身 圆圆的眼睛柔中带刚
Snow white fur around her body, round eyes have passion within gentleness
椅子上懒懒地躺着 睡觉的姿势和我一样
Lying lazily on the chair, sleeping pose of her same with mine

Stick with me when lonely
Don't look at me after meal;
Always don't cherish the happiness
You already not beside me when I'm sad

I still miss you after you left..

p/s: thanks to Lasker and Anna for helping me correct my English translation ><"

Back on the moonlight Part. 1

Today's mood :>
When I back to home from work, look at the clock, it's almost 11pm. Not yet shower, eyes half open / closed, my brain like don't let me fall asleep. Somehow can feel my heart feeling a bit heavy, plug in my ear with Jay Chou's "Qing Hua Ci". In this long long night, I feel like im waiting for something. Is the environment affected me, or I made the environment looks like how I feel? Suddenly saw the lonely table lamp showing off the beauty of backlight..

Thursday, April 17, 2008


Today's mood :>
I think i gotta back-up some of my memories into this post. So that I can delete it for now and leave it in some space I won't need to see. Here goes the story.

First of all, I wish to thank him for giving me those sweet memories although it didn't end up well. No worries, this story is very short and simple. ^^

Wait, I guess I shouldn't post here. Ah... I'll just write it on my real diary so that it can avoid some misunderstanding and troubles. Sorry ya if you were ready to hear the story.. haha.. I'm being very emo these days. My heart is half broken but time will fix it. :) Sorry and goodbye.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008


Today's mood :>
It's not about being busybody, but sometimes you need to ignore certain annoying people. Maybe I'm one of those people, I never wish to be neglected / avoided. But since someone tried to ignore me, i would love to ignore him too. He doesn't care how I feel then I wouldn't need to care bout him also lah. hmmm.. see later need to add on anot.. ><|||

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Qing Ming

Today's mood :>
It's Qing Ming again. This year abit different, less car than past years. Surprisingly able to park in front of the door! As usual, sure got people couldn't come to clean up the grave because of OT last night. But I've never missed every year. 365 days in a year, only 3 hours you're asked to clean up the grave, I suppose it's not taking a lot of your time. Nvm, everybody got different point of view!

These two weekend lately I went to see my friends jamming. They asked me to sing because I don't know how to play any music instrument :D haihz, even voice oso cannot hear 1! If I got money and time, I'll go take a vocal class. At least not embarassing when singing Karaoke then can oledi.. T^T

Yesterday, I just throw resigning letter. Lady boss asked me why, I didn't even explain properly. Her phone rang in the middle of the conversation, talked on the phone for 5 minutes, her face filled with troubles and tiredness said, asked me to give her a confirmation letter, then she'll take it as official acceptance. In this situation, it's better not to be asked to stay. hehe. 2 months later I'll drop this job. Hope that next company will suit me more! Wish me good luck.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

4 in the morning

Today's mood :>
I'm still in office now, already stopped working. still waiting that lousy suka-suka restart mia computer render that 8 minutes presentation. pray that he wont angry me that i kacau him so late ler..

now office left me and anthony la. actually i got no car to go home. also dunno who's coming to pick me up ah~ actually, almost sun rise ler. no need go back also can gua. got no family members waiting me to go back n sleep. he also didn't gimme a phone call. i think it's ok gua..

ShoutOut oso kosong 1. everybody should be listening Grandpa Chou telling story gua. "jik mok dou ye sum" (lonely until late night in Cantonese) ah..still dunno how/want to go home anot..i miss you all ah~ :sing: "dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui, ni xiang bu xiang zhao ge ren lai pei~"