Wednesday, September 02, 2009

My cousin

Today's mood :>
上个星期四,是我在Uno最后一天上班。放工后大伙一起吃韩国BBQ。吃后大家都纷纷回家去。当我在去停车场的路上,无意间看见我的表姐和她的男友在咖啡厅里。我已经快2年没见过她了。两年前,我听说她与她妈不合,所以搬出去住了。我实在非常高兴遇见她,没想太多就过去哈啦了。她和她的男友都比以前胖多了,那该证明了生活居住饮食良好。大家都问同一个超常用的开场白-"几时结婚啊?"哈哈。。
聊呀聊的,竟然提起4年前发生的事件。她很惊讶我隐瞒了她,如果我有找她谈至少能让她能安慰我。。我怎能说得出口呢。。
至今我还再想,如果当初的决定是相反的话,结局也会不一样吗?是不是后悔了呢?其实也没有后悔当初的决定,毕竟那不是我一个人能决定得了。。只不过,那阴影和因果总让我心疼,想找他哭诉一切。。
我们总是没把事情说清楚。他从来不提,我却不敢过问。他心底其实到底有没有丁点不舍?我是不是只有一个人为那事件哭泣?要怎么做才能完全放下所有?

Monday, August 10, 2009

Am I a bad daughter?

Today's mood :>
I already moved out from my family's house for almost 3 years. I go back like once or twice a month. No, it's not far from the place im staying now, around 20 mins drive. Now I dun feel like moving back honestly. I'm wondering am i really the worst daughter in the world..

my mom always call me. It sounds good, but the fact is she just ask money from me. YES, I know, as a son or daughter we should pay back to parents as they gave birth and feed us for us to grow up and be orang berguna. But is that all you can talk to your daughter who has been staying in other house for almost 3 years? Can't u just ask bout my work or life? I'm not earning much from my work. Though my kind bro borrow me his car for me to drive to work in Mont Kiara, I had to pay all my expenses other than car loan. One of my friend even told me that she thinks I'm stingy. I didn't put any effort to belanja or even ajak friends to go yum cha. The question is, can I afford to do that? Do you notice I always wear same pair of sport shoes everyday? And I only have 1 pair of jeans? And I only have 1 hand bag?

Honestly I get quite pissed and even sometimes very sad that I couldnt earn much. I can't have the life I want to live in. Im off for now. Just to rant. Still office hour. Ciaoz.

Thursday, August 06, 2009

It's just me

Today's mood :>


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Sunday, July 05, 2009

2 + 2 (unexpected) Leave Taken in June 2009

Today's mood :>
olaa... let's update u about my June 2009 before the July ended.. LOL.. last month was super 'exciting' in a way that most of the things are unexpected.. lets start.

12 June 2009
(Fri)
I drove to work as usual, while I stopped near Jalan Kuchai Lama waiting traffic light to turn into Jalan Klang Lama, I heard some 'PAKKK' sound loudly on my left. I turned n saw my left passenger window was WHITE in color. I was wondering who the heck splash water on my glass, but when i looked closely, I saw cracks and motorcycle beside the window. "F***, dun tell me 'that story' gonna happen on me" I told myself. The next second before I could grab my bag on the passenger seat next to me, the snatch thief broke the window n grabbed it away. Of cuz, they 'vroom' and larikan diri. the next second, i finally came back and screamed 'F***!!!!!!!!!!!' and horn. Alot of people asked me why dont i bang the thieves. If i could, i would. i was stucked in the middle of the long queue, and FYI, there's a pasar pagi on my right, mamak stalls on my left. They are probably 'pro' in doing those stuff. I heard ppl in the mamak stall asked if i can drive. i didnt even look at them, i started my car (i think my car mati engine after window kena broken) and u-turn back to home. After calming down, Mr Ho drove me to block atm cards in the nearest banks. While on the way, we saw policemen standing on the road side, we stopped and asked where to get police report cuz my bag kena snatch bla bla. The policeman said "OH SO YOU ARE THE BLACK PROTON WIRA NEAR THE KUCHAI LAMA? I SAW YOU AND WANTED TO HELP YOU, BUT YOU DROVE AWAY" ... i was so speechless. help me then chase the motorcyclist. what is 'BUT YOU DROVE AWAY'? so my company is kind enough to gimme 1 day leave to settle my stuff. my advice, DO NOT PUT YOUR BAG ON THE PASSENGER SEAT. maybe u heard it a thousand times from anybody, but dun assume that it wont happen to you. that's my mistake.

18 - 19 June 2009 (Thurs - Fri)
actually my whole trip to Koh Samui is 18 - 21 june, but i only took 18 n 19 June as they are working days. I woke up 3am in the morning on the day of my flight to Koh Samui at 4.30pm just to do research what to do in Koh Samui. 4 of us reached there around dinner time. We checked in our hotel and had our approx rm140+ per person dinner before we get a tour package around the island at the 'tourist information' counter beside the restaurant. the next day, we went around the island in a van and took a number of photos including all the famous 'tourist-must-see' places. At night, we had cheaper dinner in some stall 'hiding' in the small lane. well we enjoyed thai horror drama there too. haha. i noticed that their orange juice taste like mandarin orange. @_@ On the third day, we went snorkeling around Koh Tao and Koh Nang Yuan. We had our free dinner at hotel which including in our hotel package. OMG their dinner is 'scary' and filling. the salad which came first probably can fill up ur whole stomach already. coming up next was the coconut milk soup, something like that but it tastes exactly like Tom Yam Gong. O_O then, the main course is some spicy spaghetti and then dessert is..fruits!! and then me and my fren secretly planned a birthday surprise for my other fren whose birthday is on 21 June (the day we will be coming back to KL). sadly, she's not surprised and not even like...er...appreciate? sigh, whatever. I did my best. The next day is our last day in koh samui, we went shopping and had Pizza Hut for our lunch+tea time before we go to the airport. the Pizza Hut there got pork rib 1 lo, but not as nice as Malaysia's Gu Lou Yuk lar.. LOL. we almost late to the airport. when we arrived there, the counter said 'CLOSE' i was like 'omgwtfccbknn!#&$(%*!#$(*' we were told that the plane which we suppose to get in had engine problem, so the flight will be delay to the next day..... which is MONDAY! tho they pay for our EXTRA night in Koh Samui, i just dun feel like stay there anymore!!! For the first time I miss Malaysia so much. :P

22 June 2009 (Monday)
Yeah that's the EXTRA day in Koh Samui. I asked Mr Ho to email my boss to tell the story. Sigh... my leave just wasted like that. I took Berjaya Air to go Koh Samui but came back with Firefly. well that gives me extra experience.. hehe..

Thats all.. I seriously dunno why am i so unlucky in June..

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Spending Spree

Today's mood :>
Yesterday, Mr Ho was going to meet with his client in Time Square. I followed him and he 'ABANDONED' me in Time Square as he had to go for his uni's alumni dinner thingy. I called up my fren, teng, to drop by and teman me shopping. But she said she is going to reach around 8pm when i called her at 6pm. sobz.. so I went Borders and rounded the craft and magazine sections. I just bought rm70 of magazines last week O_O. so i dun dare to buy any more books.

After I left Borders, I went into Sasa. A promoter approached me and trying to assist me. Well i was just looking for a new eyebrow brush. i told her so that i dont need to find it..she immediately gave me a cheapest 1.. rm2.90. wow. then she asked whether i am looking for anything else.. so i...err... saw the fake eyelash and asked her bout it.. FYI, i nvr tried to wear that before, so i bought 1 pair and the eye putti. she keep recommend me stuffssss until end up at the counter, RM269.10. omg!!! i just wanted to buy a rm2.90 stuff but end up i bought rm269!!! when i open my wallet, ..... i left rm2 after paying her. ToT

well the rm269 is including a bottle of sparkling mask, toner, eyebrow brush, fake eyelash, eye putti and mascara remover. huhuhu... this month im so gonna bankrupt!

after went to the ATM and refill my wallet T_T, i dun dare to walk around anymore. so i sat down at starbucks with a drink rm14.70. sigh. while watching youtube on other's notebook through the glass window next to me, my fren finally reached to rescue me from spending spree. but wtf we went to sing k! we sang until 4am and the bill was around rm180.

NO MORE BOSTON
FOR THIS MONTH!
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Where does 'Elvie' come from?

Today's mood :>
Andrew asked me, "how do you get ur name?" Below is my answer.

First of all, I don't want a common name.
Second, I wanted to have an 'E' on the beginning and an 'E' at the end
Third, I wanted to have a 'V' in it but I don't want a name like 'Eve'
Forth, I wanted my name to b easy to pronounce / have a shortcut
Fifth, I don't like 'Vy' as V. so I took 'Vie'
Sixth, To have shortcut in my name, I put 'El' to sound like a 'L'

There you go. That's how I got the name 'Elvie' BEFORE I know that LV stands for Louis Vuitton. =.="
*ps: I did actually flipped through the bible to get some idea...LOL*

Monday, February 09, 2009

帶我走-楊丞琳

Today's mood :>

帶我走-楊丞琳


填詞:蘇打綠

每次我總 一個人走
交叉路口 自己生活

這次你卻說帶我走 某個角落 就你和我
像土壤抓緊花的迷惑 像天空纏綿雨的洶湧

在你的身後 計算的步伐每個背影每個場景 都有發過的夢

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走

每次我總獨自遠走
保持沉默 不皺眉頭
這次你卻說一起走
如此溫柔 從此以後

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑 像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
在你的身後 計算的步伐每個背影每個場景
都有發過的夢

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走

白茫留過漆黑盡頭
潮汐襲來浪花顫動
停在海岸結成了沫 哦~

成爲朝向草原其中
又在傳來一滴彩虹
刻在心中拍打著脈搏

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走

帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
帶我走~

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i know, outdated abit. it was in my draft box for too long -.-
enjoy.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

给五月天的信

Today's mood :>
我不是疯狂收集专辑的人,也没有上网抓歌的人,
却是超爱听音乐的人,也只爱听自己喜欢的音乐。
在收音机听过"你不是真正的快乐"后,就有股冲动想买下那首歌。
结果,没有遗憾了,没有后悔了。
这张专辑确实是非常值得收藏的。

五月天给我背后的回忆
他和他的朋友都爱听五月天的歌。"神的孩子都在跳舞"是我将口袋挖空去买的专辑,送给他。不是什么特别的节日,只是想给个惊喜。现在都不知道丢到哪里了。

忽然,五月天在马来西亚开演唱会,说好大家一起去看的。我偷偷去买了门票。第一次看演唱会的我,不知道什么是"ROCKZONE",所以买了2张远处观望的票(比较便宜啊)。想给的惊喜却换来臭脸。都是自己笨。
真希望有一天能站在五月天面前看他们的表演。

五月天给我的感觉是很朴素的,很贴切的。每一首歌都能让每一个人联想到自己。"你不是真正的快乐"专辑的概念是我最感到景仰的。专辑就应该有专辑本身概念的次序。"笑忘歌"真的让我在哭了11首歌后开始微笑。这专辑实在很完整,也难怪阿信会没有「啊!还有还沒说完的話呢,現在不能死啊~」的感觉。

"如烟"也是一首让我印象深刻的歌。多么重的味道。没有重复的歌词却又带出人生一出戏那么长篇的故事。歌词背后的心酸,"有谁能听见,我不要告别"能让人呐喊心中的不贲。

五月天竟然会让我直觉说,他们不是BOYBAND。不是赚够了钱就拆BAND的,而是以友谊和音乐,不感动全球不罢休的天团。像要世界和平的那种伟大思想。

先停笔了,有空再补充。

Monday, January 12, 2009

Today's mood :>
is he changed, or am I extremely LOA?
nobody can tell me, he never comfort me..or is everything happen too fast? heat up too fast, cool down also fast..
I have no idea, Feng. whether I want to b with a person that love me or a person that can b by my side.
why can't I have both? haha. maybe that's why, I be with a person that accompany me so that person doesn't love me.

but, what is love?

what made me so emo is bcuz I found out that he smsed his exgf who called him yesterday , said that "not good timing. call u tmrw" I confronted him, he said he didn't call her. how can I proof that he did or did not? can I trust him? I know, I already don't trust him first of all.

FireWire said, if u always suffer in a relationship, u better end it before it's too late. But which relationship never has bad times? if I never work hard, I won't learn anything. well he might be the only one who knows that I always try to save my relationship which he thinks it's wasting effort.

"THIS RELATIONSHIP IS NOT ONLY ME!" I always shouted this to him. I know he can never understand. I really am tired of this. I can't give up until I found proof. prove that this relationship has to end, prove that he doesn't love me anymore, prove that I don't love him anymore, prove that this is a dead-end.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

傻瓜

Today's mood :>
我只是被利用的傻瓜而已。这样自负的话,是不会得到幸福的。

Monday, January 05, 2009

如煙 - 五月天

Today's mood :>


詞/阿信 
曲/石頭

我坐在床前 望著窗外 回憶滿天
生命是華麗錯覺 時間是賊 偷走一切
七歲的那一年 抓住那隻蟬 以為能抓住夏天
十七歲的那年 吻過他的臉 就以為和他能永遠

有沒有那麼一種永遠 永遠不改變
擁抱過的美麗都 再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野 讓生離和死別都遙遠
有誰能聽見

我坐在床前 轉過頭看 誰在沉睡 那一張蒼老的臉
好像是我 緊閉雙眼
曾經是愛我的 和我深愛的 都圍繞在我身邊
帶不走的那些 遺憾和眷戀 都化成最後一滴淚

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚 能洗掉後悔 
化成大雨降落在 回不去的街
再給我一次機會 將故事改寫 
還欠了他一生的 一句抱歉

有沒有那麼一個世界 永遠不天黑 
星星太陽萬物都 聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓缺 春天不走遠 
樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉 有誰能聽見

耳際 眼前 此生重演 是我來自漆黑 而又回歸漆黑 
人間 瞬間 天地之間 下次我 又是誰
有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰 永遠不凋謝 
永遠驕傲和完美 永遠不妥協
為何人生最後會像一張紙屑 還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

有沒有那麼一張書籤 停止那一天 
最單純的笑臉和 最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水 
雙眼只有無猜和無邪 讓我們無法無天

有沒有那麼一首詩篇 找不到句點 
青春永遠定居在 我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋 
笑忘人間的苦痛 只有甜美

有沒有那麼一個明天 重頭活一遍 
讓我再次感受曾 揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生活 我都不浪費 不讓故事這麼的後悔

有誰能聽見 我不要告別
我坐在床前 看著指尖 已經如煙

translation :
Chinese Music Blog
Sunset Butterflies

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This album, reminding me that 'I'm no longer a kid'. The title of the album "后。青春期的诗" (direct translate will be "Poem of Post-Puberty") suits all the songs in the album. I like this album especially this song and of course "你不是真的快樂". This is not the first time I buy MayDay's album. For surprises I bought their album n concert tickets. But what in return is not happiness. :(

This is really a good song. A lot of translation can found on the net. I think they want to spread the meaning of this song. "Don't regret when it's too late". Appreciate every day you spent, no matter happy or sad. The lyrics carries heavy and strong regret which can't be turn back anymore. And the rhythm of this song suits the lyrics really well.

If you think people who regrets is stupid, think again. You're just too stubborn to understand, human is made of feelings and emotions.

It seems that the 'poetry' after the puberty are the sad ones, most of them are negative thinking. In the end of the album, the last song "笑忘歌", (seems purposely placed for the last) is to ask you sing along this song. Laugh and Forget. Live with happiness even there's regrets and tears. :) simply amazing.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Heartache

Today's mood :>
Just now I had slight heartache again. my heart felt uncomfortable, like a part of yr heart kena korek out. this had been happened to me few years back. I thought maybe I stayed up late for too long. for my case, it's quite noticable as my face will show that I'm suffering. it's not painful, but pressured.

Last November, my colleague, andrew told me that he has heartache like me too. but his case is much serious as he feels difficult to breath too. so he went to the hospital for a body check-up, no broken ribs -.-||| but he found out that it might be the early sign of heart-attack.

I never do a body check-up before. I think I'll be ok. it always has been like this, I will recover for the time being.
By the way, I think I gave myself too much pressure. I always wanted to be the best gf. I want to own him. I always want to keep track on what he is doing, thinking and feeling. until I loss the time for myself. and restricting him.

I'm such a loser.

is this PMS effect....?